[He remembers. And he still doesn't necessarily feel as if he need an apology, but it would be an insult to her to brush her off.]
I accept your apology.
[He smiles just slightly.]
I think most of the others would have been willing to overlook my preferences on the matter, in the end, anyway. So I'm glad they decided to listen to Sandalphon. Even if I die tomorrow I'm...
["I'm happy" is what he'd usually say. But how can he say that after what just happened? He turns around again, not trusting his own coping mechanisms not to fail him.]
...if we'd killed another person today, I couldn't have gone on.
[He would have blamed himself. It would have torn him apart.]
And I think if we fall victim to mob mentality, we'll truly have lost. As long as we can continue to listen to and believe in one another, there's still hope.
[He knows that saying this so cavalier is startling to people. That most don't, can't, understand, Ion's seemingly endless selflessness. His lack of survival instinct. It's all so complicated.]
Once we start, where will it end? Vengeance may very well beget nothing but more vengeance. The killings could escalate from there, week by week, until there's nothing left. In the end, this may happen no matter what we do to prevent it, but I think it's important to hold onto what peace we can for as long as we're able.
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toughchoices) wrote2018-06-02 01:57 am
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Yes, I did. It's as my partner said - I went ahead with making those suggestions, which could have affected your life, without consulting you first.
[...]
So. I'm sorry.
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[He remembers. And he still doesn't necessarily feel as if he need an apology, but it would be an insult to her to brush her off.]
I accept your apology.
[He smiles just slightly.]
I think most of the others would have been willing to overlook my preferences on the matter, in the end, anyway. So I'm glad they decided to listen to Sandalphon. Even if I die tomorrow I'm...
["I'm happy" is what he'd usually say. But how can he say that after what just happened? He turns around again, not trusting his own coping mechanisms not to fail him.]
Relieved.
[It's a safer word. Less of a lie.]
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[she doesn't see what he has to be relieved about]
...relieved? Why is that?
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[He would have blamed himself. It would have torn him apart.]
And I think if we fall victim to mob mentality, we'll truly have lost. As long as we can continue to listen to and believe in one another, there's still hope.
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[gods of rome, is this boy actually a saint or what???]
Fitzgerald was culpable in Natsuo's death, as well. But potentially losing your own life... that's really preferable to you?
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[He knows that saying this so cavalier is startling to people. That most don't, can't, understand, Ion's seemingly endless selflessness. His lack of survival instinct. It's all so complicated.]
Once we start, where will it end? Vengeance may very well beget nothing but more vengeance. The killings could escalate from there, week by week, until there's nothing left. In the end, this may happen no matter what we do to prevent it, but I think it's important to hold onto what peace we can for as long as we're able.